Hello bello mello, I am not sure if these words even exist but it has been a long time people. Now I am not sure if you remember my earlier post on “A Letter To My Crush” - well you may not if you haven't read it. Most people who read it sweetly commented to me saying, “IT WAS A CLICKBAIT” and I thought it over. I totally understand where this thought is coming from. So I thought maybe I should do some justice to you all with this post. I assure you I won’t disappoint you. As the title reads, "it's my crush reveal” - lol I feel gutsy at the moment to be revealing my sweet crush in public.
I am sure I have put you all into a lot of suspense, so I guess it’s time and I feel the need to tell you now. Speaking of her, I guess it was love at first sight - I just couldn’t hold my eyes back from her from the very first time when I saw her through a video. Well it’s interesting cause I never met my crush in person. Actually I found out about her through the internet. Well I don’t know how you would define beauty but for me she’s my beauty. Even her imperfections look glamorous in my eyes. So I can’t hold my excitement to introduce you to my crush.
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Meet the charming Xochitl Gomez! Funny thing is I don't even know how to pronounce her name lmao - what a shame right?
Meet Xochitl Gomez who plays America Chavez in Multiverse of Madness who also stole my heart….hehe I know what you guys had in mind, well I never said which crush I was going to reveal. Here I go with my celebrity crush.
Well that’s it, that’s my crush. I hope you guys are satisfied now!
Anyway in this post I also wanted to share some personal experiences that I had over the last couple of days. I am not sure what to call it, but I refer to it as contemplating but I might be wrong - so correct me if I am wrong. I enjoyed delving into the subconscious mind where I am lost, vividly dreaming and controlling my actions there. It was such a great moment being in that state of mind where you feel free from everything, where you feel free from your insecurities, self doubts, cause it’s just me envisioning myself somewhere. Well I do wish my life turns out that way - so I’ll keep fighting for it!
Besides that I find destiny interesting, cause I do feel this world is kinda written by some unknown force or energy or whatever you may like to call it. I think it always has what’s best for us written in it. Well some months ago, when I had something in my life turn away from me, I thought it as suffering. I hated the feeling of losing it and was totally confused with what was going on with me. I never knew the reasons why I was losing it, nor did I know what led to that conclusion of that chapter of the story in my life. But now as life goes on, I realized it was best for me to have lost that cause I find joy in being liberated, free of obligations and I can finally be me. Maybe I think that was how it was written in my fate - not be obligated by anything and be the person I am. Be it being cheesy, childish, annoying - I think like the Saying in Hindi - Uparwala Ney Wey Sai Bana Rakhi He! - must have done the best for me.
I am sure you might have heard of this cliché, What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. That fate of mine did make me stronger and groomed me into a better person, a confident, a strong person and just boosted my self esteem.
Now you might have understood what I am saying and I am sure there will be some of you who think - what the hell is this guy talking about. Well I am just saying destiny has the best written for you so don't give up on yourself.
Anyways, I’ll soon be heading to a new aspect of my life so I’ll keep you guys updated about it.
Till then, see ya!